I used to blog every Sunday about 2 years ago. Then, life happened. I had a baby, and was dealing with anxiety and depression. So I decided to focus on my self-care and journey to lose weight. That requires taking a step back, not being a workaholic and taking breaks. The reason I only write when God gives me the inspiration, is because I always want to be AUTHENTIC. In a world full of social media hype, some people will literally kill themselves to stay relevant. I can’t take on that type of stress. So when I feel overwhelmed I back up and take breaks.
I’m currently a full-time stay at home mom. Now, coming from someone who used to speak at events in my city back home, work a full-time job leading a non-profit teen program with one of my closest friends, be a mentor, daughter, sister and friend. Oh and by the way I was in grad school full-time as well. So trust me I have come a long way and have changed my perspective on “success” ALOT. My life is still busy, but in different ways. It looks completely different. No matter how much society tries to downplay the role of a SAHM (Stay at home mom) we do so much and we are amazing! Contrary to popular belief we work full-time as well. Our work is not meaningless and we can live without the constant questions of “what do we do all day”? Or “poor you, you must always be tired” comments.
In short, it is a beautiful privilege. I get to mold my son with love and guidance. I get to pour into him daily. The lessons he has taught me from just being who God made him, I’m convinced could not have been learned if I wasn’t home with him. My awesome husband works and comes home to help me 100%. It’s a decision we both made together for our family. I’m not being forced to do it. My husband gives me full control over my own life and purpose. I could choose to work if I wanted to, or stay home. I chose to stay home, and its the best decision I’ve ever made. Him giving me the room to figure out my path, my life purpose while taking care of our son is priceless. During this time I have been able to slow down and work on myself in so many amazing ways. I firmly believe God intended for my life to play out this way, because if It was up to me I’d probably still be in West Palm Beach overworking myself to the point of having health scares like I did in the past.
Just to be clear, I’m still figuring out my purpose and what I’m called to do and that’s OK. I have so much clarity on who Katondra is and becoming content in that. I may not be everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s ok too. I’m free from people bondage and over thinking about what others think of me. I’m secure. I know who I am and the people who are in my life love me and know who I am and that’s all that matters to me. There’s no competition here. It’s ME vs. ME.
I know who I am and the people who are in my life love me and know who I am and that’s all that matters to me.
This leads me to the point of this blog. Don’t bury your gifts.
Three things God spoke to me about burying gifts:
The fear of man (people bondage)- This will keep you paralyzed in fear of what everyone thinks. You will literally stress yourself with “what ifs” and stay stagnant for months, years even. You will fulfill your own self doubt of not doing anything with your life and gifts if you stay in this place.
Proverbs 29:25 ” The fear of man brings a snare, but he who trusts in the LORD will be exalted.
Parable of the talents (the man who buried his talents) Matthew 25:14-30- If you are not familiar with this story please go read it. In short, this man wasted gifts given to him because he was scared to do anything with them. How many of us, because we fear to step out and invest in the gifts and abilities God has given us, miss opportunities to use and develop our talents to their full potential? We leave the treasure lying buried in the dirt.
You miss out on your life’s purpose and calling– No one wants to miss out on their purpose in life. God promises us that our gifts will make room for us if we use them. So use them! Step out in faith and let God do the rest. Allow God to show you why he is God and allow his gifts through you to bring you to great destinations!
Proverbs 18:16 “A man’s gift makes room for him and brings him before the great.”
Currently besides being a full-time mommy, I am a community leader for the Maryland Dope wives group. (visit Dope Wives for more information). I also lead the children’s ministry at my church alongside my husband. And I write blogs, sharing my heart and pieces of my life along the way. I refuse to bury my gifts. I may fail at some things and I might succeed at others, but I wont sit stagnant. I will push myself to learn more, grow more, be more and do more. Without stress or negativity. I hope you are willing to push yourself to do the same! Use your gifts, don’t allow fear to consume you and watch the beauty that unfolds!